Megan's behavior :-(
Well, I sat down to write a huge vent about Megan's behavior. And darn it, she just came into my room wearing bunny ears and carrying a balloon. How can one girl be so cute and so horribly mean and upset the next moment?
My happy girl has turned into a monster. I'm just praying that it is a temporary developmental stage, and not an evolution into what her personality is to come. I can't do anything, take her anywhere. She screams, throws tantrums. If I try to take her hand and guide her anywhere, she throws herself to the floor and screams. But if she gets her way, then she's all smiles and literally skipping - well it's more like a little hopping motion - she can't actually skip. But you get the idea.
We went to the baseball game Saturday night - got outfield seats where there's just a bunch of grass and you bring blankets. She was constantly running away - laughing all the way. When I'd try to bring her back, she'd start screaming and throw herself to the ground. DH actually said on the way home - well that was fun - and he was serious! I guess I was the only one stressing out over it. John and is 3 yr old cousin actually got into the act, chasing her, grabbing her hand until I could get there to carry her back.
I've carried her more in the past 2 weeks than I have in the past 2 years. And she is now getting to be a big girl.
I tried to take the kids to the gym this afternoon. As soon as we walked into the child care area, she started screaming with her hands over her ears. And it was not busy or loud at all. They have about a 4 foot fence surrounding the large play area, with a gate. I left, then watched from around the corner while she tried everything she could to climb the fence and get out. Those poor workers tried everything. But no, she didn't want to leave the club - what she wanted was just to run around the place wherever she wanted. When I tried to get her out, she threw herself down in the lobby, screaming. Of course, I have my gym bag, purse, and John - and she is not going anywhere. I had to pick her up and carry her.
In the past 2 weeks, she has thrown towels and toys into the fish tank, somehow got the childproof cap off of a bottle of children's liquid cold medicine and either drank it or poured it into the fish tank, so I was on the phone with poison control. She's dumped a box of laundry detergent all over the floor, destroyed so many things in the house I can't even remember. Found a pen and scribbled all over a ton of stuff. We've had to add child proof locks to even more cabinets and drawers, childproof knobs on the laundry room door, and I thought by now we'd be over all that.
DH and I were talking about Disneyland where we're planning to go in Sept. I said we should think about one of those "leashes" - where it goes around their waist. He said no way is he leashing his child and if she needs that, then we're just not going. Well, that's nice to say - what if we then never go? What if John never gets to go because his sister can't be trusted not to run away? He was telling someone the other day that Megan does NOT have autism. Well, whatever. The Dr thinks that everything's a result of some genetic syndrome, but the result is the same - autistic behaviors. What difference does it make what's causing it - she still acts the same as a child with autism.
I'm so exhausted and stressed. Probably because I haven't been able to work out in over a week because of Megan. I tried to take her to the grocery store to get a few things last week and that was a disaster - screaming tantrums again. She's too big to get in the cart and would just hurt herself trying to get herself out. They have those push cars with a basket on the back, but she can undo seat belts now and just climbs out and runs.
If she doesn't get past this before summer, then I am going to be stuck at home every day. I was stuck at home like this when she was younger, but then, I didn't have a son who very much wants to go places and do things. And of course I'm used to having some freedom too now.
She's not having seizures so I don't think it's related to anything like that. I'm just SO tired of this. So, there - the novel. I think I feel better - thanks for reading. And I'm sorry I've been somewhat absent and behind on posts, and blogs, etc.
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